bubbles

i might turn out sounding vain...
i prefer referring to it as simply "being honest"
i like reading back my old blogs in fs
seemed like i had much to say about a lot of things while doing nothing hehe
yeah..i used to spend nearly 1 n a half years being employed, yet practically doing nothing
such a waste of time & talent *lol*
but i'm paying for it now..karma bebeh~

nways
i guess i know what's happening to me
when i was in college, one of the subjects we took was Communication
i still remember my lecturer, the soft Mr N, talking about how each of us has our own private bubble
the size of the bubble differs among everyone
some people have very big bubbles
some, have very small
i belong to the former
what does this bubble mean, u ask?
well...the bubble is actually your private space
it determines how close you allow people to get close to you
the bigger your bubble, the more private a person you are
and so in my case...i think my bubble has grown bigger than they used to
i grew up with a very wide bubble
coz i never had anyone i could talk to..or share my feelings with
i always kept to myself
my only doorway out of my bubble was my diaries & sketches
(i can feel my bubble expanding right this moment)

some people can easily share their thoughts, beliefs & actions with other people
these kind of people are said to have smaller bubbles
hence, they are more approachable

what i'm trying to say is that, i'm not sure if i can contain myself in my bubble anymore
it's slowly turning into a vacuumed space
i've to be careful else i'd be sucked into the black hole!

get loose, missy!